The Tired Mum

It’s coming up for my birthday so I was messaging a few friends to see if they would be out for some last minute celebrations, a lot of the replies where the same, they had been feeling very tired recently.

The last couple of weeks my head feels like it’s full of cotton wool and I am wondering around like a zombie. This could be down to a recent change in medication but it’s really getting tough this mother of two malarkey.

It was when my friend messaged that she felt totally unable some days and others on top of things and I knew exactly how that felt as that’s how I feel most weeks.

Our children are the same age; we are pretty much experiencing all the stages together. This is lovely as it’s nice to know your children will have a playmate but it’s mostly great for venting/chatting about the ups and downs of the current stage we are going through.

As both mothers of two, two children who have the same age difference, we are exhausted! I was so pleased when she said that “I am tired” because I am knackered!

The early startled wake ups of a crying, hungry boy is one of the most unpleasant wake ups one can have, this is every morning.

The cries wake the toddler, who is now grumpy due to the unnatural wakeup call and will moan until breakfast is provide in her favourite bowl and then just moan for the rest of the morning because mummy can’t do anything right.

Running to nursery most mornings as the boy normally schedules his exploding poos when we are on time and just about to leave the house...this is nearly every morning!

After drop off its back to house, get baby napping and squeezing as much house work I can in the time the baby naps.

The endless washing of clothes, I swear the wash basket had a bottom to it, I just haven’t seen it in a while.

Errands have to be run, food has to be provided and everything in between....no wonder I feel like the scarecrow missing a brain, its auto pilot.

I talked about the urge to fall pregnant again and this week I have been thinking how the hell I would do it when I can barely manage day to day at the moment.

 The thing is though, I would cope and adapt just like I had before because as humans/mothers we can do this very well. It just doesn’t seem like it sometimes but I see it.

I have never really felt tiredness like this before though, it’s like I said, I am on auto pilot. I can just do now without much thought, its second nature.  I am always on and ready for the next mummy calling. I wake up in the night at the slightest creak as I am sure my daughter will be running through to me any second...she normally doesn’t.

I have become like my dad, he always was ready for anything, still is. He’s a fire fighter and can be called out at anytime of the day and night, he is always on. No sneaking in late in my house, my dad can tell you the exact time you got in or if you talked in your sleep.

Maybe I need a vitamin boost or maybe I just have to except I will now be tired forever, hahah!